We’re having a baby!
I’ve been sooooo excited to tell you this! I’m answering some questions below on pregnancy so far! I’m curious to know if any of you guys thought I was pregnant?! A couple of you emailed me asking why I stopped drinking alcohol…pregnancy is why!
First things first. To any of my readers struggling with infertility or any single women who want a baby but it hasn’t happened yet, I send you the warmest hug. I know posts like this can’t be easy to read and know you are in my thoughts and on my heart.
How’d I tell Andrew?
We started trying to get pregnant last year and found out we were pregnant March 4th! When we started trying to get pregnant I bought some sparkly, baby shoes from Gap Kids. The morning I found out it was a Saturday at 6am and I woke up covered in sweat. I thought, “hmm. That’s never happened before.” I took a pregnancy test and sure enough…positive!
I waited until Andrew woke up and then stuffed the baby shoes with peanut butter and gave them to Maggie.
When Andrew came into our living room I was like, “what does Maggie have?” So he walked over and looked and said, “they’re little shoes.” Pause. “YOU’RE PREGNANT?!!”
And to give you a timeline, I quit my job at the private practice I was working at the day before I found out we were pregnant. Oh life, that was fun timing.
Andrew has been fabulous. When he leaves in the morning (99% of the time I’m still in bed) and he’ll give me a 30 second foot massage and if I’m already feeling nauseous he’ll say something along the lines of, “do what you need to do to grow that baby!” It’s helped me feel supported and okay about the fact that I need to sleep 10 hours a night, nap during the day, and have zero interest in cooking us dinner.
We told both of our parents with onesies that we wrapped. I’m bummed I didn’t get a photo of Andrew parents with their onesie! They were the first people we told and I was too excited to focus! Here are my parents :)
Are you having cravings?
Umm I don’t feel like my cravings are any stronger than they are when I’m eating when I’m not pregnant. I love intuitive eating because you always get to tap into what sounds nourishing to your body. I’ve been pondering if women and pregnancy cravings is a thing because it’s a socially acceptable time for you to have cravings. I crave (and EAT!) specific foods when I’m pregnant and when I’m not pregnant. So I don’t see many differences here, however I discuss food aversions below.
Any food aversions?
YES! So many. Many times there will only be one thing that sounds good for a meal, not because I’m craving it but because everything else sounds gross.
You’re probably gonna laugh at this one. The only thing that really made me want to gag for the first 2 months of pregnancy was even the thought of a latte lol. As you know, I was SO a vanilla-latte-a-day person, but since being pregnant that is the only thing that sounds honestly vile to me. They say your pregnancy cravings help you tune in to what nutrients your body is missing. I kinda wonder if aversions work the same but opposite way…they let you know the nutrients your body has plenty of haha. My body was like, “umm hey. I think we good on the lattes” lol. There is a recommended maximum amount of caffeine to have a day when pregnant, so I’m not too bummed my latte cravings have disappeared lol:)
I have started to enjoy decaf caramel lattes recently! AND highly palatable foods are excellent at overriding the nausea. Hello, all the chick-fil-a! They know me know at my local chick-fil-a and it makes me smile.
How are you feeling?
Since 8 weeks pregnant (April 1st) I’ve been feeling: Tired. Nauseous. Just feeling down/blue/not like myself. There are a lot of times when I’m alone and I just yell, “EWWWWWW,” because I feel sick.
I imagine that the tiredness + nausea + hormone shifts could be the factors making me feel blue. I’ve also had some big life changes all at the same time with opening the private practice and then finding out about bambino (or bambina). All the changes, all at once could be contributing to an unsettled and weirdly dissatisfied feeling. A lot of days I feel it’s hard to feel good. I’ve practically became self-care barbie over the past 3 years, which really helps me feel satisfied with life, however with pregnancy a lot of the things I do for self care don’t make me feel fulfilled anymore. For instance, I loved taking myself on breakfast dates or going on walks while listening to podcasts, but with nausea, food aversions and exhaustion, those two self care activities aren’t satisfying anymore. Maybe it’s pregnancy hormones running rampant or maybe it’s all the changes in my life, but I have felt more down lately. Even writing the blog has been hard some days, which makes me very uncomfortable because I so rarely feel like blogging is a hard thing to do. People say things start improving after the first trimester when the placenta is fully developed, which I guess lessens my hormonal load (or at least that’s what my pregnancy app says lol).
What’s up with hunger?
The biggest difference I’ve noticed is to my hunger level. One night around 6wks pregnant I woke up at 4am feeling hungrier than I’d ever felt in my life. I actually started crying because I was standing in my kitchen and didn’t know how to make the hunger go away. Looking back now, I didn’t realize then that I was also starting to feel nauseous at this point + food aversions were high…all that mixed with hunger and exhaustion pushed me over the edge. There are still times now I finish a meal off with a Clif bar or ice cream because I’m just hungry.
Cottage cheese + crunchy crackers have been my go to for the out of control hunger. As long as I eat a size-able snack prior to going to bed I don’t wake up at 4am with a growling stomach.
I know my body knows how to gain weight in pregnancy. I know logically that I don’t need to fear my hunger, however (being honest here) in the beginning the intense hunger was overwhelming. There have been times when I’ve questioned my hunger. Like thinking, “really body? You need more food right now? Okay!” For instance, when I JUST ate a meal and would feel like I ate nothing. Many meals have been finished with a grapefruit the size of my face, toast topped with peanut butter + bananas + M&Ms, or ice cream. Other times eating smaller meals every 1-2 hours works really good and keeps the nausea away. There are also times I feel zero hunger, but I’m nauseous and eating makes the nausea seem less intense. Intuitive eating in pregnancy is a new learning experience :)
I text Andrew all the time saying, “your child is eating all of my food.” hehe.
How has your body image been?
More posts to come on this FOR SURE! I don’t spend a lot of time in the mirror. I don’t avoid mirrors, but I also don’t stand in front of them turning from side-to-side looking at my body. I put on makeup, make sure my outfit looks okay, and then I’m out the door. Around week 7 I was still following my same routine of not spending my leisure time in front of the mirror. Then one night when I was in the shower it hit me…”I don’t want to miss this! I don’t want to miss seeing my body change as I grow our baby!” Since then I’ve been looking in the mirror a lot more. I’m really excited to see my body change. AND I’ve also already had to get some preemptive support from another ED dietitian on my changing body. I’ll be sharing my thoughts on all this later. I was a bit frustrated with myself because I know not everyone gets the chance to grow a child and I should welcome all body changes in pregnancy, however this is a new experience for me and my body and self-compassion is where it’s at right now. I have been preparing myself for these body changes and I want to share how I’m learning to take care of myself in this new experience.
When my OB brought up how much weight she’d like me to gain in pregnancy I said, “I won’t be weighing myself at home, but I know my body knows how to gain weight in pregnancy and I don’t need to micromanage it.” She agreed and we left it at that.
Any other changes?
My boobs! I finally have them! I honestly felt like they grew an entire cup size overnight. So that’s been fun:)
Have any other questions? I’d love to answer them below. Have any words of advice? I’d REALLY love to hear it below!
p.s. the fact that Oh, Joy has a baby line now. OMGSH. Coincidence? I think not. My child is gonna be clothed in so much color and many patterns. I’ve already bought this because it’s a romper. FOR A BABY!