1. The moment I realized something about burgers.
I remember when I was actively trying to help my brain think more neutral thoughts about burgers and it dawned on me that a burger is just a sandwich. People talk about burgers like they’re toxic and I was like…but it’s just bread and meat. IT’S JUST A SANDWICH! WAIT, WHAT?!! Why are we trained to think these are bad? It’s protein, carbs and fat. It’s perfect.
2. How many eating disorder behaviors can you keep and still recover?
This is a trick question.
Behaviors will (many times) change before your thoughts will. You will have to stop engaging in a particular behavior before you will naturally have the thought to. It’s hard, but all ED behaviors have to go for you to recover. What are you waiting on?
3. Your body is a temple
Growing up, when I’d hear people reference any scripture referring to the body as a temple, I felt like I was being told that temples were beautiful so I should be striving to conform my body to the standards set by our broken world (become thinner. take up less space. eliminate dessert. eliminate carbs.).
But now I realize that a temple isn’t made to be worshiped, it’s a place to worship! When your body becomes what you are worshiping…it’s idolatry. A few weeks ago at church we had a guest pastor, Richard Beck, who shared his personal idolatry detection questions. I thought they were helpful so I wanted to share them here:
- What makes me feel special or significant? Where do I get my self esteem? (other than God.)
- What do I lean on when I’m hurt? (other than God.)
If I have this right, a temple should be a place that allows you to have more connection to God, right? For some, pursuing a body size you’re not meant to be will break your connection to Him. It broke my connection to him for years. I have this image in my mind now of me clinging on to my excessive exercise routine and size too small pants looking Jesus in the face asking, “why isn’t this working? Why isn’t this solving my problems? I’ve got this thinness level, why isn’t everything better?” When I think back to me back then I imagine God being like, “I wish you would’ve chosen me a bit sooner, but it’s okay. I still love you.” And even when I make mistakes now or feel like I’m drowning in anxiety I imagine God saying, “I wish you would’ve chosen me in x situation, but it’s okay. I still love you.”
Circling back to the temple. I’m all for treating your body with respect, for many reasons, one of those being it’s home to the the holy spirit. I think having respect for a temple could mean not littering in it. Littering a temple could be comparable to cluttering your mind with thoughts and behaviors that show what false idols you have, such as the pursuit of a certain body size, obsession with certain foods because you have eliminated so many foods, and many more I’m sure you could think of for yourself.
4. Hair cut for curly hair.
Clearly a topic change haha. I heard about DevaCut/DevaCurl a year ago and finally looked up a salon that is trained in the technique. The salon I went to only cuts curly hair (I don’t know why I hadn’t been going to a curly hair salon for years!). For those in Houston, I went to Planet Curls and really liked it. I’d been wanting some DevaCurl products but didn’t know which ones to get and wanted some guidance from a stylist. I ended up taking home the below products (the DevaCurl Curl Maker Spray Gel is my favorite so far <– affiliate link) and the advice to only wash my hair once a week (not gonna happen haha, but I am going to try to wash it less).
My curls get more defined the less I wash them. Here’s my hair right after washing it…
And here it is 4 days after washing…(way more curly!). I’m excited to play around with it more!
5. The long weekend
We had a great long weekend with a trip to the lake and a chill brunch with friends yesterday. Looking forward to this quick week!
There’s a lot in this post! Any thoughts?