I’m NOT choosing a body size for myself, but I am choosing how I want to take care of myself.
I don’t believe ending up at a particular body size means I’m taking better or worse care of myself.
I’ve always been a very impulsive person, which played into me engaging in bingeing behaviors in the past (something I hope to share in a post in the near future. I haven’t talked about my bingeing much and I think it could be helpful for some of you to hear my experience). I do think that sometimes my impulsiveness serves me in positive way…like with starting a blog. I probably wouldn’t have started a blog if I was a person who liked to sit around and think things out.
Since there are areas of my life where being impulsive doesn’t serve me, one of the things I’ve done to take care of myself is doing things that make me less impulsive and more mindful. Yoga, taking deep breaths while eating a fab meal to assess my fullness level, and long walks have been helpful in helping me:
- slow down
- tune into my body
- not want to dissociate away from myself and my feelings
I’ve also been playing around with some morning visualization mindfulness practices lately. Not sure on my feelings about that and if it helps. I’ll let you know after I do the thing I am spending time visualizing.
I always felt so rushed growing up…and I’m not totally sure why that was. Now I feel like I have so much time. Doing work I actually enjoy helps. I always dreaded school (high school, college, grad school…hated it all.). I think because I had zero hobbies and I know now that I need a high level of independence to function well. I always felt so controlled in school.
So two ways I choose to take care of myself are 1) increasing my mindfulness and 2) creating a career where I have a lot of independence.
I’d love to get a good conversation going in the comments about ways you treat yourself well and choose to take care of yourself. I think all of you (and me) could benefit from your ideas. Things that have nothing to do with controlling your body size, but are instead centered around taking excellent care of yourself regardless of your body size.