I began immaEATthat in July 2011. It’s been a decade! I’ve enjoyed sharing my journey away from the eating disorder and into healing. What started as a resource that would make one’s eating disorder worse, transformed over a decade into something that has supported many of you in stepping away from unhealthy behaviors and discovering new ways to relate to your body. It felt very important to me to share and give others access to the information that was changing my life. I actually drafted out a “the end” post 3 years ago, but I didn’t have peace around stopping blogging then. The past 3 years have been about wrapping up the blog and finishing it out as a complete body of work in my eyes. And now, that is done. I ultimately have come to this decision because Andrew and I crave privacy for our family and, at the moment, I crave a job that isn’t as enmeshment with my personal life. I know a quiet life is pleasing to the Lord (1 Thessalonians 4:11) and I want to move into living that. I enjoy writing, but want to move away from the blog format. I need to rest with my kids at their nap time, instead of pushing forward a business. To be able to do that, I need less to do. Stopping blogging is a part of that. And even though I have peace around this decision…endings are hard.
This blog started when I was in a place of such weakness. Most of college was a dark, lonely time for me and my best friends were this blog and exercise. Through this blog, and what it’s done over the past decade, I’ve seen 2 Corinthians 9-10 playing out before my eyes: Christ’s strength being made perfect in my weakness. His power has been glorified through this space. If this blog has brought healing to your life, all the glory to God.
To my readers, I have thought of you guys, in a Christian sense, as my “neighbors.” As in, people who I want to care for well. I hope the majority of the time you felt understood and cared for by the words written here. I know I will miss you. I know I will think about you often and wonder how you and your families are doing. I know your names. I know how many kids you have. I’ve loved getting to know your heart in your kind and thoughtful comments over the past ten years. I’ve loved getting to work with many of you as one-on-one clients. THANK YOU FOR READING. This blog has been so healing and essential for me to write. I would not have been able to work in the eating disorder field without this blog giving me a place to find my voice. Getting to share what I’ve learned in the past decade with you has been necessary to solidify my beliefs on bodies and how to eat, move, and care for them.
Readers, thank you for being respectful and encouraging. Other blogs have helped me get through hard seasons of life and I hope this blog has been that for you. Thank you for being here to root me on during numerous seasons of life. Now, I’ve found my home (my literal house where we’ll raise our family, but also, in-person community who I can share with more authentically than is appropriate and healthy to share on the internet for all to see). If this blog was anonymous, I would keep writing it forever. But since it is not, it’s time to let it go.
To Andrew, thank you for being my constant wellspring of optimism and for building me up. I love life with you. I am so comforted getting to know our kids are getting to grow up with you as their dad and I have you as my husband. Thank you for supporting me in writing this blog and being okay with it being such a part of our lives for a decade. To Quinn, my father-in-law, and friends, thank you for seeing my worth outside of this blog and for speaking it over me, whether directly or indirectly.
What’s next for me? 1) more unfrenzied/unscheduled time with my kids during the week, 2) shifting indefinitely to private practice work. I’m so grateful I have the private practice to pivot fully into now and that now I have Hannah working with me. I love working one-on-one with clients and I want to prioritize that. If you or a friend struggles with an eating disorder/disordered eating, the biggest compliment would be if you sent them my way to work with my practice, we have openings available.
All the blog content will stay live, so the content will be here for you and others. Soon the blog will get a redesign that will make it evergreen and user-friendly. But mainly, I plan on this next decade of my life being more quiet and intimate with a small handful of people I love. I may update the blog once a year starting in 2023 – I do love some of the ways that sharing here helps me pay attention to myself, my family, and the world. The podcast and my newsletter will continue to be part of my business. Thank you for reading, commenting, and being part of creating this space with me.