I’m Kylie and welcome to immaEATthat.
I haven’t always been in love with food.
In my sophomore year of high school I had anorexia. My parents were quick to intervene and get me the help/therapy I needed. Unfortunately, at this same time I found cross country and started excessively running to compensate for the food I was eating. This led to 5 years of restricting food, binge eating and excessive exercising.
A 5 year cycle of running too far in the morning, restricting in the early part of the day, overeating/binging at night because I didn’t eat enough during the day, waking up the next morning and telling myself I HAD to go exercise because I overate the night before. It was such a destructive, dangerous, ugly cycle that was impossible for me to break without help.
For me, the road to being recovered included:
(1) Surrounding myself with normal eaters. People who eat everything and have no food rules.
(2) Quitting depriving myself of the food I crave. If I don’t honor my cravings and end up feeling deprived, I found it was easy for me to fall back into the lethal restricting then binging then overexercising cycle.
(3) Realizing that my value doesn’t come from external things, but comes from internal things.
(4) Letting professionals help me. Therapists, dietitians & doctors. I needed a treatment team.
(5) Discovering food blogs. Food blogs helped me fall back in love with food.
This is the only place on the blog were I will mention my past history of an eating disorder. Everything else will be reserved for celebrating food. I just want anyone struggling out there to know you are not alone.
If you live in Houston and struggle with an eating disorder or disordered eating, I would be more than happy to help you. I offer Skype sessions for those outside of Houston. You can find more about my nutrition counseling here. Feel free to email me at immaEATthat@gmail.com with any questions.
On immaEATthat I try to make healthy eating something to look forward to. Everyone’s definition of “healthy eating” is different. To me, I just focus on being a normal eater. Someone who eats everything and has no food rules. Seriously, NO FOOD RULES. There is no stress over eating something or not eating something. If you can only eat one vegetable in a day…GREAT! If you didn’t eat any vegetable in a day…it happens! Food is morally neutral. Eating a particular way does not make you better than anyone.
I eat everything. Nothing is off limits. I listen to my hunger and fullness and listen to what my body is craving. There are still times when I can feel my emotions getting the best of me and I have to step back and take a deep breath and make the choice to not use food to replace a feeling I don’t want to feel.
For me, it’s been a long road to falling back in love with food. But I’m here now. I hope if you’re struggling with having a healthy relationship with food that immaEATthat will have a positive presence in your life.