1. The mindfullness practice that helped me in recovery.
There are times when I reflect back on recovery and the exact tools / ah-ha moments that helped me recover.
In my eating disorder, every day I woke up with automatic thoughts to eat as little as possible, avoid “bad” food, and exercise as much as possible. This left me ending up feeling out of control around food multiple times a week and took up a ridiculous amount of precious brain space. My eating disorder also made me a boring person, which is something I want to write a longer blog post on later.
Once I had awareness of the thought that was keeping me stuck restricting, overexercising, bingeing, and feeling out of control around food, I realized I needed a new automatic thought. So I started doing this:
Wake up. I’d calmly recognize the automatic thought my ED had trained me into to restrict / overexercise / have fear foods –> then I started to train myself into a new automatic thought that helped me focus on the present moment by saying (sometimes out loud and sometimes in my head), “i’m going to listen to my hunger and fullness cues and cravings today. All foods are protein, carbs and fat, so there are no bad foods.” –> then repeat this to myself as I encountered challenging eating situations throughout the day.
At the time I didn’t realize what I was doing or recognize this as a mindfullness practice, but looking back that is exactly what it was…it was something that grounded me and kept my automatic thoughts from wreaking havoc on my mental health and physical health.
For at least 3 months I’d wake up and start my day countering the unhelpful automatic thought that was keeping me stuck.
2. The best quote I saw this week.
3. Half-caf Vanilla Lattes
In the first trimester and beginning of the second trimester lattes sounded so unappetizing. Now that we’re nearing the third trimester, lattes have never sounded better. I love getting a latte to create coziness for myself on a random weekday afternoon.
4. Center for Discovery Dinner
Last night I attended a dinner to learn more about Center for Discovery’s (a eating disorder recovery treatment facility) new binge eating disorder (BED) track. Aaron Flores, who is the dietitian on the great podcast Dietitian’s Unplugged, played a big role in planning the content for the new track. While not everyone who struggles with BED is in a larger body, the program will promote recovery by changing behaviors associated with binge eating…instead of focusing on weight. Since weight isn’t a behavior.
For dinner we ate at Mia Bella and had yummy apps…
A delish crab cake…
A salmon + lemon risotto + grapefruit dish (which i’ve got for leftovers for lunch today yay!)
And vanilla bean gelato…
5. Theo’s PB cups!
Have you guys tried these? I had them this week and thought it was more tasty than Justin’s! The PB texture inside reminded me of a Reese’s but the chocolate tasted better than Reese’s chocolate. What do you think?